Sunday, August 14, 2011

Day Who the Hell Knows and Where the F*ck is my wagon?

So here we are a week or so later and you know what?  Not only did I fall off the wagon, I f*ckin bounced when I hit the ground.  Big Girl Booty jiggled and rolled a few times.  That was some funny stuff.  And you know what, that damn wagon kept going and I have no idea where the hell it is.  Why is it when we say we fell off the wagon, we presume the wagon just stops and waits for us.  Maybe because we presume we are the driver and if we fall off then the horse will stop without the driver.  Except it doesn't really work that way.  Those horses, think "whoohoo freedom" and keep on going.  Which then means we have to catch the damn wagon.  So of course inquisitive me wanted to know where the saying "I fell off the wagon" came from, so here you go.

Back in the wild west days, poeple used to transport wine and liqueur in barrells by horses. One guy would be handeling the horses who is now known as the driver, and another guy would be sitting next to him with a shot gun protecting the goods, (hence, the expression "shotgun") when somebody sitts in the front passenger seat. However, due to the long roads the protector ends up drinking the whole time to make time go by faster. Subsequently, the guy who's been drinking for the last 1700 miles or so gets drunk and fall off the wagon. Hence, the expression:"Falling off the wagon."

So, when somebody says: "i fell off the wagon", it doesn't mean he just started drinking again, it simply means he HAS BEEN drinking for a while. and getting back on the wagon means that he's ok and in a position to be the protector again.

Hmmm....very interesting.  So this means this week I have to catch my wagon and get to protecting my goods (which is little ol' me) again.  So I have to pick myself up, dust myself off and get moving, get eating right and start over.

So what caused my fall?  some stress and pressure i put on myself, the new home, new job, clients, and not feeling well.  i just was not strong enough to not go back to comfort foods.  I was sleeping a lot and not drinking the tea.  A few days I ate very little because I just wasn't hungry.  But I see where I faltered and know how to fix it.  But realistically I will probably falter more times here and there because I am human.  I keep repeating diabetes in my head.

So if you see my wagon or by chance have caught it for me, I will hold out a hand so you can swing me back on.  See that is what I learned is that sometimes I need to ask for help, sometimes I need a hand.  And sometimes I am here to help others.  It is all about balance. It is about ying and yang.

So lets do this!  Lets help each other! Let's let Sunrider and Exercise help others!  Lets be great together.

Big Girl Booty

Monday, August 8, 2011

Day 26 - 29 - Intentions and Accountability

Why is it we judge others by their actions and not their intentions but when it comes to ourselves we judge ourselves by our intentions and not our actions?  Now that just doesn't seem right.  Why do we hold others to a higher standard then ourselves?  You may think to yourself "I don't do that".  But think about it a little longer.  A friend says they are going to do something and end up not following through.  We get upset and say actions speak louder than words.  But I am sure they did have good intentions.  We say we are going to do something, be there for a friend, lose weight, etc but then end up not being there, not following through.  We tell ourselves, "I intended to but things got in the way."  It is a survival mechanism.

This weekend I allowed my intentions to win and not the action.  I completely fell off the wagon and did not eat well.  Friday I met an old friend for lunch and had part of a cheese crisp with veggies, black bean soup chips/salsa.  Friday night shared a cajun chicken pasta bowl with my mom and Red Lobster.  Saturday I woke up at 4:30 am to have a yard sale.  It wiped me out and I just didn't want to think much about eating the right thing.  Lunch was pizza and a beer.  Dinner was not bad (mongolian brown rice bowl with lots of veggies, little sauce) and a beer.  Sunday wasn't too bad except that I didn't eat frequently enough.  I had a miso soup, sushi roll and seaweed salad.  Dinner was grilled salmon, salad, fruit.  Today again not too good.  Shake for breakfast, sunbar.  Then the downfall of chips/salsa and a salad with salsa.  Dinner baked chicken, pinto beans (not canned, actually cooked), fresh salsa and chips.  Again the chips are killing me.  Plus I didn't blog so I had no accountability.  Tomorrow I get back on track with my 3 sunrider meals, sunbars and lunch and dinner.

Although I had the best intentions of doing better this weekend I didn't follow through with actions.  There is no excuse because at the end of the day an excuse is just an excuse.  Then I reminded myself today why I started this.  It wasn't just to lose weight.  It was not to end up like my grandmother.  To not be overweight and get diabetes and have other medical problems.  I have already struggled enough at such a young age with medical problems.  I can't afford to not take care of myself.  At what point do we start to ensure we aren't just about intentions but we are about actions.  At what point do we judge ourselves the same way we judge others.  And maybe it isn't about judgement but accountability.  I am happy to be learning this now and not at 54.

I hope you can stick with me as I go through this learning process.  Any encouraging words would be helpful.

Dr. Chen is coming to town this Saturday!  Come and hear about all the products and why this company is so inspiring and is changing not only my life but others.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Day 25 - Shut the front door, come on out to the back...we are having a party

I had no clue what to write about today.  Come on how do you follow such an epic event as last night.  
Then I remembered that Dr. Chen is coming to town.  It's like having a party in your own backyard.  This is an opportunity you do not want to miss.  Check out the link to find out more.   Email me if you want to sign up and I will help you out.

Then 15 minutes ago I was blessed with some allergies.  I have no idea from what, who, when, where, etc I just know they arrived.  So lovely the sneezing, watery eyes, stuffyness, headache.  Ahhh

So what is an allergy:
Definition of ALLERGY

: altered bodily reactivity (as hypersensitivity) to an antigen in response to a first exposure <a bee venom allergy so severe that a second sting may be fatal>
: exaggerated or pathological immunological reaction (as by sneezing, difficult breathing, itching, or skin rashes) to substances, situations, or physical states that are without comparable effect on the average individual
Now the funny thing is that I could not find a definition for immunological in the dictionary. The closes I found was:


: the capacity of the body's immune system to remember an encounter with an antigen due to the activation of B cells or T cells having specificity for the antigen and to react more swiftly to the antigen by means of these activated cells in a later encounter
Basically this means our body remembers when something has tried to attack it and what it did to fight it off.  Now that is pretty impressive. 
So if our body is able to do this and does it over a 1000 times a day why do we get allergies, sick, dis-ease, etc?
The reason is because our body gets out of balance and our immune system stops working properly.  An allergy is due to our immune system being out of balance.  
Now I have known for a long time my immune system has been out of balance because I have had migraines, allergies, sinus pain and at one point mono.  I just had no idea how to fix it despite trying all the new age items. It was time for me to regenerate my health.  Sunrider is helping me regenerate.  And when quinary needs a little extra help I take one of the five herbal formulas that make up quinary.  So what will help my immune system?
Answer:  Alpha 20C - it is made up of naturally occurring antioxidants that aid in boosting the immune system back to balance so it can continue to fight off all the things attacking the body.  When the immune system is working we don't realize how much it is really doing.  It is only when it is out of whack that we realize how much other parts of the body are trying to compensate.
This product has also helped others heal faster that have went through surgery, chemo (Dr. Mrs. Chen has a personal life victory story about this), have had allergies, and many other immune issues.
But it is always best to start with the Sunrider meal of NuPlus/Vitashake, Quinary, Calli/Fortune Delight Tea and Sunnydew to start the regeneration process.  If after you have been eating the meals and still feel that you need help in particular areas then consider adding an herbal concentrate such as Alpha 20C.
Breakfast:  NuPlus Shake with berries, vitafruit, fortune delight, and acouphidilis.  Calli tea.
Snack:  Sunbar
Snack:  NuPlus Shake with mixed fruit, vitafruit, fortune delight.  Calli tea.
Lunch:  Pad Thai - Mildly spicy rice noodle stir fry with vegetable, onion, tofu, bean sprouts topped with peanuts and fresh basil, sided with a lime.  Brown rice and salad.
Snack:  Sunbar
Dinner:  vegetable stuffed chicken, quinoa, olive oil and balsamic vinegar green beans and tomatoes
Snack:  NuPlus Shake with berries, vitafruit, fortune delight.  Calli tea.
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Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Day 24 - Are you f'in serious, a saying comes to life...Sunrider has an herb for that

First...I am excited because I have another follower.  Yipee!!!

Exhaling loudly.  Wow what a night.  My parents always told me to be careful who my friends are because  the wrong friends will get into trouble and leave me to take the rap.  So of course I have always taught my son that.  Now I am a very involved parent and know the parents of my sons friends and parents of those that are not necessarily friends.  The young men know I can be a very cool parent but also have boundaries, require respect and am not to be messed with.  And I hold others accountable for their actions.  My son knows regardless of friends it is best to not be in the wrong place, at the wrong time, with the wrong people because there are always consequences sooner or later.  Sometimes you just don't know it was the wrong place, at the wrong time with the wrong people.  My son learned this by way of his friends tonight.  So you probably want to know what happened.

Tonight my son comes in to ask if he can get his car washed.  I think to myself and then out loud.  "Why? it might rain so there is no point."  Then he proceeds to tell me that there is still some egg on it.  Um hello can we back up.
"What egg?"
"Well when I was at Larry's* house the other night, some kids teepeed Larry's house and then plastic wrapped my car and egged it.  And my windows were rolled down and some egg got on the inside of my door and on my seat and it really smells now."  
"Um do you know who did this?"
"Yes but I don't want to get them in trouble."
"Well it is either you pay for it or they do and you know I will find out who did it and it won't be good" "Then I will pay for it."
"Okay but it will be about $150 to get it fully cleaned.  You don't have $150 in your account."
"Fine, it was  Bob*, Charlie*, Jarod* and a few others"
Considering I know Bob, Charlie and Jarod you can imagine that didn't bode well with me. "Well then they can pay for it.  I am not paying for the damage.  And if they don't want to take care of it then I will call their parents."  My son is not liking this because teenage life is not easy when you call their friends out on something.
"I know they aren't going to do anything, then they will talk sh*t at school, and I am already pissed because egging is vandalism.  I get the teepee and plastic wrap but egging is going too far.  We did teepee Bob's tree last night to get him back."
"This is not ok.  They are going to have to pay for it.  You can either talk to them or I can talk to their parents."
Now this is the tough part as a parent because you don't want your child to lose friends, you don't want them to take crap at school but you also don't want kids to think they can get away with things like this.

I will spare you the rest of the conversation with one of his friends (who's mother is a friend of our family) which basically came down to me threatening to press charges for vandalism since all of them were willing to admit they were there, were willing to blame two girls they barely knew for the egging but no one wanted to pay to have the car cleaned.  I figured if no one was willing to take responsibility then a little scare would do them good.  Needless to say, the three boys are coming to clean my sons car tomorrow...with a thorough clean.  Now I did explain to Bob that my son basically didn't have a choice not to tell me.  My son knew I would use my resources to find out who did it and it would have been worse for everyone.  This experience showed my son what I had been telling him all along.  Be careful who your friends are.  And what kind of friend lets some girl egg your car?, what kind of friend won't take responsibility?  Bob is learning this lesson as well.

Well this momma bear doesn't take any crap and am not afraid of teenagers.  And I won't pay for something that someone else caused, especially a teenager that needs to learn responsibility.  So yes tomorrow I will be calling the high school this girl attends and will be getting a hold of her parents.

I am glad it wasn't my son having to learn the hard lesson.  But he would be paying to have it cleaned or would be cleaning it and apologizing to his friend and his friends parents if he had done something like this.

This is why parents get anxiety and high blood pressure.  And wouldn't you know, Sunrider has an herb for that!!!!

I have realized through the years of yo-yo dieting and using the weight watchers "if you bite it write it, if you nibble it scribble it", that stress and anxiety are triggers for me to stuff my pie hole with food.  Sometimes without even tasting what I was eating.  I have had to learn to ask myself am I really hungry or just stressed.  This has helped me many times.  It is helpful to determine what your triggers are and having a food journal will help you determine those triggers.  Knowing your triggers will allow you to find a solution to over or under eating (this can cause weight gain as well...a topic for later).  And Sunrider will help bring your body in balance whether you need to lose or gain weight.

I did wonderful with my eating today.

Breakfast:  NuPlus shake with berries and vitafruit and fortune delight.  Calli Tea.

Snack:  Sunbar

Snack:  NuPlus shake with berries, vitafruit and fortune delight.  Calli Tea.  20 minutes before lunch.

Lunch:  lettuce, edamame, crumbled rice and bean chips, tomato, steamed veggies, miso dressing

Snack:  Sunbar

Snack:  NuPlus shake with berries, vitafruit and fortune delight.  Calli Tea.

Dinner:  Tilapia, asparagus, teeny bit of potatoes, eggplant, garbanzo beans

Metashapers, metaboosters, action tabs, quinary

*Names have been changed to protect those involved.


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Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Day 23 - Acceptance

Several blogs ago I wrote that I would write about this topic at a later date.  So here we are.  As you know I started with a new company 3 weeks ago.  I consider myself a pretty strong and independent person.  In my old company I knew the ways of how things functioned, knew how others were, was brainwashed with fear of doing the wrong thing all the while feeling strong about who I was and what my role was. I would say that is a false sense of security but I never felt secure there. But here I was in a new place feeling my way around.  Interestingly enough I found myself wanting to fit in with others at my new company.  We have locked doors at our office for security and we all have key fobs that give us access. Others had theres on those spiral key chains that fit on your wrist.  As dumb as it was I wanted to have one of those.  I went to three places just to find one, just to feel like I fit in.   Such a small thing was playing a role in my life.  I felt connected once I had one.

Then we had example two last week with the tasting day.  One I wanted to know what those tastings were like and how the company functioned and I wanted to fit in.  Then yesterday I was invited to go to dinner tonight with my boss and a consultant who is training me.  I was shocked because that would never happen in my previous company.  There were title lines that shouldn't be crossed especially to eat with those with a lesser title than you.  See I broke that rule all the time because people matter to me, not titles.  One of my weaknesses the company saw in me.  I see it as a strength.   Well clearly in this new company these title lines do not exist.  So tonight we went out to dinner and I failed at eating.  I am very disappointed in myself.

I started to exam this necessity to fit in and be accepted and how that can contribute to weight gain.  Ever notice how we assume others will not accept us if we turn down a drink or say no to appetizers, bread or a dessert.  We ASSUME.  I thought tonight, I said yes because I felt they wanted me to have a drink, partake in the appetizer and have dessert.  Not because they forced me, not because they said anything but because I have been pre-conditioned to think this way.  To think others will say something if I say no, to think I won't be accepted if I say no.  The truth is, I am ok if someone doesn't like it if I say no because it is my body and my life.  It is ok if they don't accept me because I choose to be healthier.  This I choose going forward.  Next time  you are out with friends or new people stop and think before you order or pick up something you don't really want.  Stop and think is it them pressuring you or you pressuring you.

Except for dinner which I am very disappointed with myself was a good day.

Breakfast:  Nuplus shake with berries and vitafruit, Quinary

Snack:  Sunbar

Snack:  Nuplus shake with berries and vitafruit, quinary

Lunch:  3 sushi, california roll, seaweed salad, miso soup

Snack:  Sunbar

Snack:  Nuplus shake with berries and vitafruit, quinary

Dinner:  2 mixed drinks, few scoops of guacamole, small piece of bread, hazelnut crusted sea bass, asparagus, no mayo slaw, few forks of coconut cake.

Metabooster, metashapers

I did have a better day today.  The shakes 20 minutes before meals does help a lot.


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Monday, August 1, 2011

Day 20, 21 and 22 - $&$%^(&)(*)_^*%&$^

I apologize for not blogging but I have been frustrated.  I debated about being real or sugar coating things and put a positive spin on it.  I have chosen to be real and honest.  The miracle has taken a step back.  I was struck with a migraine this weekend that continued to linger till today.  I had to break down and get medicine from the Pharmacy this morning.  I wanted to will myself well and let the Sunrider products take it all away.  I wanted it all to be fixed so fast.  Isn't that how it works.  We start something and want it to work right away.  Then when it doesn't we want to give up.  

Aside from the migraine I woke up this morning feeling bloated and fat.  I felt like a big fat cow with a big girl booty.  The only difference is that a big fat cow is worth a lot on the open market.  Yep the scale confirmed that I lost .4 lbs.  Now I weigh 195, meaning I have lost a whole 2 lbs since starting.  WTF.  Not a brilliant start to a Monday.  I tried to stay positive.  I tried to rationalize what I was feeling and find the silver lining.  That is typically how I manage things.  And although everything I told myself I knew was true I still felt like sh*t.  It didn't matter that I have dropped 2 lbs, have lost a dress size (yes today putting on my big girl booty pants confirmed it), that my face looks thinner, that overall I feel much much better and usually happier.  

Here is what contributed to my downfall.  That mexican food I wrote about Friday night did not agree with me.  I didn't sleep well and felt sick most of the night and it didn't even taste good.  Got up early to get my basket and was not feeling to hot from the bad night and the migraine starting.  My neck and shoulder were really hurting.  I tried the Sunrider oil and it did help but not enough.  I was seriously out of balance.  So Saturday night I took a muscle relaxer because my head and shoulder were hurting me.  This impacted my mood big time.  It brought me down and didn't help that much.  Plus it made me agitated.  So Sunday I got a massage and a body wrap which helped some but didn't take away the pain in my shoulder or my migraine.  Then we get to today.  And as of right now still not feeling myself, shoulder still hurts and migraine still lingering.  

My skin has been itchy because I am not taking my allergy meds and my body is trying to adjust.  My sinuses are bothering me, again body trying to adjust.  Body aches, again body trying to adjust and rid my body of toxins.   

Luckily I had a Sunrider meeting tonight which helped.  Others reminded me that I have to think about how long I was doing my body wrong.  Migraines won't just stop right away, the body will take some time to balance itself out.  I have over 34 years of toxins in my body.  16 years ago I received two epidurals giving birth to my son which I believe is the deep rooted cause of my migraines.  I have a lot of toxins to rid my body of and it isn't going to happen in just 22 days.  But man is my body pissed off at me.  So yes today and for the next few days I will need some encouraging words because my body is pissed and I am frustrated.

I am trying to focus on a few months down the road when I will be in more balance.  It is like taking 2 giant leeps forward and 1 small step backwards. I am still ahead and I WILL NOT GIVE UP!!!!

I won't go over what I ate over the weekend but it was good.  The mexican food was my SMART meal.

Breakfast:  Sunbar (I was hungry when i woke up and felt nausaus) Nuplus shake with fruit, vitafruit, fortune delight

Was feeling like crap so I broke down and bought a large decaf iced caramel latte.  Tasted good.

Snack:  Sunbar

Lunch:  Spicy Noodles with vegetables (1.5 cups)

Dinner:  Chicken cabbage pocket, fruit, asparagus

always taking the metabooster, metashapers and quinary



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Friday, July 29, 2011

Day 19 - I feel like_______

You have heard the saying....I feel like a million bucks.  Well I would say I feel like 737,000 bucks.  Because I haven't quite hit the million mark but I am getting there.  It has been a pretty heavy blogging week with much food for thought so today I will keep it light.

Be careful about reading health booksYou may die of a misprint. Mark Twain

Your body is the miracle.  Fellow Sunrider

Our food should be our medicine and our medicine should be our food.” – Hippocrates

The doctor of the future will give no medicine, but will interest her or his patients in the care of the human frame, in a proper diet, and in the cause and prevention of disease. Thomas Edison

Only animals have cholesterol, plants don't have are what you eat.

Breakfast - vitashake with vitafruit, frozen berries, fortune delight.

Snack: Sunbar

Lunch:  1 oz ahi tuna and 1/2 asparagus salad from Kona grill, yes I ate the garlic bread slice they gave me

Snack:  Sunbar and vitashake

Dinner :  split chicken fajitas with my mom, chips and salsa and sangria (a little celebration for my new home passing inspection).  

Mexican food doesn't taste as good as it used to.  Not really worth the extra calories anymore.  What I do crave know are vegetables, salads and fish.  Something is changing in my body.  And still no migraines. 

Now sleep time....have to get up early to pick up my bountiful basket!!!!

Waiting on some new products....will skip the product spotlight tonight.  Look for a contest next week for a chance to win some product.  Be ready to pass on the word!!!!